love makes the world go round?

In the midst of my finals, the ends of my sophomore year, in the last few weeks of my stressful mission preparations, and other worries that consume my thoughts on a daily basis, I realized I have not taken the time to love.

Being self absorbed is tiring, even in affirmation. Yet my tiredness, my sorrow, only leads back to me. Thus, it is me being self-absorbed, and knowing that it's me and my own fault, it makes me more tired because I feel like I'm doing this alone. I'm not sure how it works, but it is an entangling entanglement.

However, that is where I fall.

As I shake my fist up to heaven and wonder out loud, why must the Lord give me these hardships to endure? What am I learning this time? And i realized today... it is not God. God isn't there when I'm going around in circles, worrying and doing one thing after another. No, because I'm forgetting to love. And without love, there is no God, because God is love.

I realized that God resides in the little acts of love, His entity is revealed when I love. When your spirit and my spirit vibe in synergy, that's God working.

So the more I love, God is all the more there; and with God there, all the more strength and energy to me! Which enables me to do greater things and finish things in victory because God is there.

But in order for me to tap into that wellspring
what I have to do right now is... pray for you.