Never in my life have i been so desperate, and yet I have not been desperate enough.

I've only just realized how much it costs to yearn for something,
I've only realized there's nothing in this world that is free.

It hurts a lot, but if i just blindly go through with it, it's not that bad.
Not bad at all.

How my faith has been tested in these past few months...
I've come to know that my faith has been the weakest of all,
but I also realized that my faith has all the potential in the world to move greater mountains.

But with so much on my shoulders, and so much of my realities against me...
I oddly feel very at peace.

I'm starting to slowly let go of my worldy desires one at a time...
and I'm beginning to express myself into words...
it's all coming together in some strange, stressful, and yet fulfilling way.

God is good.
I am not.
But we can be.