Those Last First Things

So we had our last first football game last Friday...
one of the many last first things that are headed my way.

it felt so good to perform again, and be there... even though i sat out for the last ending flag section POOOPOOO haha it's not that bad except i had to sit there kneeling the whole time, i thought my legs were going to have go through amputation because it hurt sitting there.

well it's my time to rest until EL SABRE section in that ridiculous beat of a song...
OY, but i'm kind of excited for it, but scared... excited but scared...
i'm not looking forward to the bruises and sore muscles... i need to sharpen my skills so i don't hit my head with my equipment like i do every year...

Oh which reminds me of October 14...
what is up with that?!

grr i can't believe that so much is going on on that day, however, i have to take my SATS and it's a competition day... so it really gives me no room to do much.

Well that's the day of our Homecoming, the Bamboozle Left concert (with hellogoodbye, dashboard confessional, sugarcult, Jack's mannequin, AND Cute is What We Aim FOR!!), and a friend's birthday.

Oh man this opportunity cost thing is really biting back isn't it?

The Best Years are the Last Years...

or so i hope.



Here we are again, the first day of school... however, now I'm a senior~
that went by so fast that my mind hasn't even caught up yet, it's as if time shifted into overdrive.

Classes are all right, no drama (like i ever have any... well sometimes... self drama mostly, because i'm like a little hermit in an ov ersized shell), no problems, nothing at all... but i do feel tired most of the time, which isn't really good. I finally got no first period, but i threw it away to be my english teacher's TA, she sounded like she needed a lot of help and well there i was with no first period so i decided to lend a hand.

This is totally off topic, but like it matters this is my blog and i get to talk about whatever i want... don't EVER lose your green card, passport, social security number... oh man... i'm so screwed. But things are looking up, this past wednesday and today i went to the INS to try and get my greencard. I swear in those two days, just to try and get my fingerprints on document, it cost about $300 plus all that time i wasted in this past week and all those other days i wasted during the summer and last year (and most of the time were useless waiting around, or getting something from somwhere for some damn reason!) ugh... it really took everything out of me. It might not seem that tiring (heck, i even got to get out of school early on the first day and got to school late today) but sitting there and waiting and waiting and hearing people talk, asking me the same damn things over and over again (but i don't blame them, they're just doing their job, i just wished the process was faster and more efficient) it really kills the spirit.

I feel so handicapped, this has seriously screwed me over. I can't get my license without any identification of myself. I can't travel anywhere on a plane, let alone leave the country, I can't create a checking account (which my dad told me he's going to be depositing my money there which also means that i won't be getting money until i open my checking account, WHICH MEANS i need to get my license, and that's a problem... really.), i can't even buy myself a freakin rated R movie ticket... that is sooooo sad.

so i'm a little stressed out about a few things... if this thing blows over nicely from now on, i think i'll be ok... but if not, please stop me from jumping off a bridge.